Breastfeeding woes..

breastfeeding is supposed to be the most natural thing in the world.. so why is it so difficult? I have a baby who won't latch properly, or when he does, he falls asleep and won't drink. Immediately at the hospital, they told me to give him formula in a bottle because he wasn't latching well. Rather than helping me, they chose to have me bottle feed him, and I did.. because I didn't know any better.

now I feel like hes just too lazy, so he doesn't latch as well as he needs to in order to get enough milk from me. Also, my milk supply is low.. which again.. if breastfeeding is so natural... why is that even possible.

every time he cries, i just get angry, or upset.. because every time, it's a struggle, and i end up feeling inadequate. Really though.. I can't afford to formula feed him... and i definitely didn't budget for formula feeding.

I started taking fenugreek and blessed thistle like my doctor suggested, and my milk supply did increase... but he was already lazy and so I have clogged ducts. incredibly painful and I just want to cry, and give up.. but I don't. Every 1-2 hours, i feed him and then hand him off to get some formula to supplement and feel like crying.


I really hope this gets easier.